Sparticle Horizon

So what are you doing here? That question seems to come up regularly in the repertoire of daily thoughts. You see so many places that your heart and mind would rather be yet you find yourself sitting here day after day wondering what it is that keeps you in your place and why you let it overrule any thought of going to a worldly paradise. What is this growth that you keep asking yourself about? Surely you can learn to play the Ukulele under warm skies, practice new yoga moves near crashing waves, yet when you actually think about it, you had the Djembes in that bay, you had the yoga mats but you didn’t seem to learn new moves and is became only done to gain some money and not a connection to the spiritual enough to become a daily routine so maybe there is actually a plan to all this madness, a reason why you are stuck in the puddle that is now. Yes it makes you envious that you would rather be out ‘playing’ in the sea, suntanning and walking without a shirt on, but don’t fear, those times are still coming, as they were in the past you will find them again shortly, surely it wont rain forever even here in the present, there is bound to be some good weather at some point. You noticed the difference one day last week when the weather suddenly got a little warmer, it felt good and the mood changed immediately. Take heart from that sign. In the meantime, enjoy your time in the quiet house, appreciate it because you never know what the next place may bring. You have time now to better yourself, you have been asking for this for a long time. A place to become stronger without pressure, a place you can call home, somewhere to build foundations, and what better place is there than with you spiritual brother guiding you, helping you grow and steering you in the right direction. When the time is right the money will come in, the friends will surface, the climate will be lighter and the happier times will begin again and then these times of quiet and self reflection will not be as easy to come by… I know you are starting to see it that way, beginning to relax into the solitude of quietness… close your eyes now for a bit, relax, all the hard work is being done, there is only a need to have fun and enjoy life. Breath in, breath out. If you find yourself getting jealous, envious, put down that phone, log off that social media, its all outside interferences that are filtering your thoughts, quieten the mind, pick up the uke and strum some magic, its only the beginning of that journey too and its destined to be a great one.